Sometimes I look and can't believe that you saw me when I was too scared to see you....

She knew He long before she looked up into his eyes that day. she knew that he was coming... that he would demand much of her, and require nothing of her. So she played the hide & seek game of her youth even though she appeared to many as an adult. She hid in relationships with any man that was not He. She disappeared behind clouds of weed smoke, and in the bottom of uncounted martini drinks.... and yet like in that game she loved so much as a child some part of her yearned to found, in spite of her fear, to be seen by the searching eyes.. a titling of laughter here tied to fleeing shadow to let him know he was close and that she could be right around that corner.

So when she should have looked up into his eyes that day with awareness....she choose instead to hide. She hid behind her smile and put into the universe her thought..."dont see me"