what was it like for me part 2

....I didn't hear from him all that week. and then on the 7th day it happened...Dude called. "Peace" I say to the unfamiliar number displayed on my cell phone. "Yeah...this is Dude" That first conversation must have lasted about an hour and I have no clue as to what we talked about all I remember is us promising to talk later. We wound up spending that entire summer together for the most part, although I continued to see my other male companions. You know now that I am remembering I recall telling him pretty early on the he would be my summer fling. That is why we spent so much time together....it was as though there was a count down....Memorial day to Labor day! It was a whirlwind...and looking back now I can still smile when I think of those days.

Summer was drawing to a close and I could feel me getting deeper and deeper...too many Friday nights into Saturday afternoons listening to Me'Shell, Tracey Chapman, and others. I introduced him to Fela and Femi and he would dance around the bedroom trying to keep the beat. Too many showers together, washing each other's hair and just sitting out in my backyard listening tothe brooklyn night sounds. Too many walks across the Brooklyn Bridge.. too much cooking him breakfast in bed and playing wifey...That wall I had built up around my heart was beginning to crumble and I felt the need to cut bait and run. .... so after another evening of vibing and connecting...probably 4 days shy of labor day I said to him as he was walking out my front door.."you know what...I think we should end it here." He looked back at me "what?".. "Yeah summer is just about over so lets leave it on this high note" He cocked his head to the side and looked at me...." you sure...so if you see me on the street you gonna act like you don't know me?" I breathed in deep and pulled those damn crumbling walls up into something that could at least try to protect my heart "more than likely" i said with straight brooklyn girl attitude and the touch of a smirk "I thought you said til labor day" I could tell i had thrown him for a loop. "...yeah i know but tonite feels more right....good night dude." He looked back at me one more time and then walked off into the Brooklyn night...I closed the door went upstairs to my bed and cried my eyes out. That is what it was like for me......