what was it like for me...

My soul sistah Niki posed the question....what does it mean to fall in love? what does it mean to BE in love? how does it make you feel? how many times have you been in love? is falling in love really that rare?

As I entered into 2005 I posed a very similar question to myself...."Is love a unicorn?" let me explain....if you ask anyone, any age- what a unicorn is they can tell you. they can describe it down to the detail. Yet we all know that unicorns don't exist except in fairy tales. Now take love, romantic love I mean, and do the same thing. Ask anyone what true love is and folks can describe it down to the detail..."when you will give your life for someone, unconditional, pure raw emotions, fills you up, ..." the list goes on and on. Yet most people don't think they have ever been in this place for sustained periods of time.

So what was it like for Oyo? I am not sure I have ever been in love....romantic love that is, for a sustained period of time. In fact I would go so far as to say this love we all seek and have convinced ourselves exists looks more and more like a unicorn as I grow older and wiser. Are there folks out there that I love, of course... I am just not sure that they are that one true love, soulmate. I mean of course I hope this love exists and that it will find its way into my life...

but i promised to tell what it was like for me....(or the closest I have ever come) I had just finished reading the Celestine Prophecy which encourages you to go up and introduce yourself to people that you don't know, yet they continue to make appearances in your day to day life. So I was at a street fair with one of my girlfriends just hanging out and look up and see the most beautiful dude. Our eyes made the briefest of contact and I smirked, now I say smirked and not smiled cause that is what I did. Dude had on these huge mirror sunglasses that reminded me of the highway patrol, so i smirked and kept it moving. Minutes later I am looking at a piece of merchandise (probably earrings) and I see dude about 5 paces ahead of me, there is that pull of recognition (do I know him from somewhere?), split screen-this portion was later told to me by Dude- so i had noticed her a few times during the day wondered briefly at the continuous crossing of our paths...I get on line at a food vendor to grab a bite to eat, and when I look up it is the same chick standing in line in front of me getting ready to place her order. i am a little taken a back at the coincidence and step off the line to find somewhere else to grab a bite- back to me.....not much later after grabbing some fish I see Dude by a food vendor ..... should i approach him like the book says? is the universe putting him in my path for a reason? or is this street fair just too damn small? ....but keep walking cause I don't want this cat to think I am following him. 10 minutes later I am fingering a dress by Raif and getting ready to work my magic on getting the price down into my price range when I see Dude out of the corner of my eye. Ok I think to myself give Dude your card and leave it at that, if the universe is speaking then it will fly if not so be it...cause those sunglasses are too damn big anyway! i turn to him and he looks up as though expecting me, " can I give you my card?"(yeah I have really cool calling cards with my name and a picture of the tattoo i have on the back of my neck) "Business or Pleasure?" he asks with a raised eyebrow. "Not sure yet" i say as I turn to walk away quite confident that his eyes will follow my ass as I disappear into the crowd. I didn't see him again that day........