day 3 of cleanse

Ok So I almost had a break down yesterday...wanted to give up so bad it hurt. I thought about going downstairs and making a tuna fish sandwich. I thought about skating over to habana outpost and ordering a mexican corn and maybe an avocado sandwich. I am walking around with $4 in my pocket so I can't buy starbucks or sushi or anything for that matter. I leave my ATM card at home so that I cant take any $$ out. But my tummy is really bothering me today. I think my period is starting tomorrow, and I have an Interview at Lehman Brothers tomorrow. Today maybe my last day. I am getting ready to drink my tea now, and start on the lemon aid.
Oh yeah....last night I was at 177.

8 1/2 more days

I like that number better!

I think I am gonna stick to 10 days and work on making it thru that. I am dying today. I had a meeting this morning so I didnt drink my morning tea until 11:30 almost 12 noon. I had 2 BMs this morning before I left for work but nothing since then. I am a little hungry and more so just craving avocado sandwich...wow I think my avocado addiction is worse than my starbucks addiction. Not craving Starbucks to badly...just avocado & a taste of sushi. But I know that it is mental... I can get thru this, I know I can!

20 days to go...

So I am wrapping up my first day on the cleanse. Not to bad a few cravings but not overwhelemingly so. I did think about avocado sandwich & having Habana Outpost tomorrow. But Habana Out Post will be there on Oct 1 when I wrap up. I am a little hungry right now so I will have a little lemonade before I am make my tea.

Only had 5 cups so far so this will be #6. I added less maple syrup to the mix because I can stand to lose a few extra pounds. I am at 179.4 as of this post.

Master Cleanse....

21 days and counting.....

Ok I have pretty much been a slug all summer and put on about 12 lbs ;o( not happy, and none of my clothes fit properly. So Russatta and I have been planning on doing the master cleanse since April and we are finally getting around to it. She started today and I am starting tomorrow since my lemons were rock hard this morning and My maple sryup was running low (My son has been using it on his pancakes). So I am shooting for 21 days gonna start with 10 and add 3 days at a time. hopping to slim down, tone up a bit, and jump start my move back top healthy living. I am also hoping to have a clearer head and more energy. Thats all for now, got to go drink my tea and hop on the scale!

Update...I am at 183 ;o( so that is 15lbs I added over the summer

I have a son in Middle School!

He graduated from elementary school this past June on the honor roll with a handful of awards. I was so proud of him. He is an amazing child and I am truly blessed to have him in my life.

Yesterday was the first day of school for him! Middle School, new school, new kids, new teachers, new everything! His dad and talked to him about the importance of it all over the summer and one last time as we all walked up the block to his new school together.
"You ok..?" I asked " Yeah...just a few butterflies in my tummy." he replied with a nervous smile. "Its cool...thats normal, you gonna have a great time! Just be yourself and dont brag about stuff ok" I say. "Ok mom"

But truth be told I was nervous also. My son was starting a new school. He is really smart and I never really have to worry about academics with him. But I do know that social issues can affect academic issues. I he doesnt like school because of school mates, it makes it that much harder to succeed. Medhane is an only child and I know sometimes has trouble relating to kids his own age, so I have been spending time and energy working on his social skills. "Dont mention to them that you are only nine, dont brag how smart you are, dont be over judgmental, dont brag about traveling. Its ok to mention it if asked but always be humble about what you have and know that some people may get jealous so it is important how you frame things!" I repeated over and over to him.

I still cant believe I have a son in Middle School!